Elliot Page Details Secret, 2-Year Romance With Closeted Celeb

He added that he told her, “‘I can’t do that, but if you want to you should.’ The word ‘should’ came out sharp, a pulled pin, it was just a matter of time now.”

Despite fond memories, he recalls realizing they were at different places in their journeys.

“Discreet but adventurous sex,” he wrote. “On rocks just below the Pacific Coast Highway, hidden in boulders in Joshua Tree National Park, on an airplane. An unconscious yearning to be caught, to have no choice. Forced through the door. I didn’t want to come out. I wanted to be with her, we loved each other, cared deeply and had a meaningful time together.”

And ultimately, Page noted that their relationship wasn’t built to last.

“It was not a sustainable relationship, just like when I had kept people hidden,” the actor said. “The lying, the anxiety, the disgust. People didn’t ‘think she was queer,’ but they definitely assumed I was, and I don’t think she could handle the shame. Ultimately, she had to do what was best for her, and unfortunately it resulted in my heart being shattered.”